#but they've been in comps together since before then

[kays-dream]

𝟎𝟒/𝟎𝟗/𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟒

Sooo I'm currently on spring break and I feel like this is finally a good opportunity to break into a bunch of new good habits! Today I plan on setting some goals for myself and maybe telling you a bit about my day and stuff :)

I'll break this down into a couple sections...

𝙰𝚌𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚖𝚒𝚌 𝚐𝚘𝚊𝚕𝚜

During quarters 1-3 of the school year I was kind of out of it, I didn't really study or do much. I wasn't up to my own standards and I think that's because I didn't really set clear standards for myself. I feel if I start planning more and setting more goals I can have improved motivation and productivity that I've yet to experience. During this last quarter of the school year I want to actually be active in school and mentally, here's some goals I've set...

bring all my average grades up to at least A's (bio is killing me ;-;)

make quizlets for each class to prepare for finals !!

to start actively participating in class taking notes and finally raising my hand

to actually spend at least one day a week studying (a small start— but an impactful one :3)

𝙰𝚝𝚑𝚕𝚎𝚝𝚒𝚌 𝚐𝚘𝚊𝚕𝚜

I've never really been an athletic person until now. My whole life I was never forced into sports or anything, I always wanted my mom to do something like that, but she never did, and with that I just grew up kind of lazy. At the age of 11 I picked up gymnastics but then stopped due to the pandemic, I didn't really train or anything so I didn't improve till I started taking classes again, I've been taking classes for around 2 years straight now but only recently I actually started taking gymnastics seriously, I've realized that I could be just as good as the girls I long to be like if I'd only put in the work and effort.

I didn't really realize how much I liked sports up until a couple weeks ago when I impulsively joined my schools track team out of boredom, I'm lowkey one of the worst on the team, but from the bottom you can only move upwards! Now I really want to take my sports seriously, I'm on my gymnastics pre-competitive team and I'm thinking about committing to their bronze team this fall, but I need to actually put in effort now, and I really need to improve at track. Here's my current goals that I'm aiming for...

to start stretching everyday

to run a mile everyday till I can reach a 5 minute mile easily

to get a 15 second 100m dash (guys I'm slow ik...)

to vault 6ft on pole vault

to regain my lost skills on bars (after my last gymnastics comp I keep getting overly anxious before doing legit the easiest skills on bars)

to train my core more

𝙷𝚊𝚋𝚒𝚝𝚜

My mental states been pretty messy recently, but I've been contemplating what's factoring into it and I'm come to the conclusion that my habits need to improve, they've been negatively effecting me for too long, now it's time I implement good habits. I always procrastinate, I think but never do, my rooms a mess which ='s my brain being a mess. I need to get myself together by cleaning and starting new good habits, some of these habits include...

working out and stretching everyday (as mentioned before!)

making sure to do my skincare every morning and every night (recently I've finally invested in some new skincare products and this is really a helpful habit both physically and mentally for me)

cleaning my room and keeping it clean

having me time (whether it be reading a book or playing a lil video game by myself, I feel like as an extrovert I literally force myself to be around or on call with people 24/7 and I think I need to start having time to reflect and be just Kay for a minute)

𝚁𝚎𝚓𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚙𝚢

(my version)

I feel like my whole life I've been terrified of rejection, I've let it get a hold of me. Sometimes I miss out on really good things, since I'm too anxious of the possibility of an unhappy outcome. I think what really made me wanna start rejection therapy is that a week or so ago I applied for this really cool looking job at a creative workshop and got rejected due to my word choice and not diving deep enough into my experiences within the application, it really upset me. I finally put myself out there and I got rejected. Rejection is really scary, I've confessed to like 3 people and gotten rejected 2/3 times... I feel as though I need to prove to myself that rejection isn't that bad, if it's meant to be it'll be, and if it doesn't that is perfectly fine. To combat this fear and disappointment rejection gives me I'm going to put myself out there more. Who knows, maybe good will come out of this too :) I'm gonna start... (these aren't really 100% rejection but I think they'll help me be less scared of the possibility of rejection yk?)

applying for more jobs

signing up for more possible opportunities

entering more contests

trying to talk to more new people (I'm always terrified that they'll tell me to go away or that I'm annoying or something)

Anyways sorry for the yap fest!! I'll be updating on my goals every once in a while sooo stay tuned ig :)

[jade-of-mourning]

heyyy it’s snailon,,,

brain juice isn’t really braining rn but I saw your super cool girl makorra post and just wanted to tell you I giggled to myself about that. fem mako I will always love you… you’re real in my heart… lesbians makorra you are famous to me… I’m literally going insane HA

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hey snailon <3 ngl my week has been genuinely insane so sorry it took a long minute to respond! (i spent roughly 40 hours at percussion in the last seven days in addition to school :P to overshare: i got second place in a marimba solo comp and the highest score from my school!) okay moving on to your ask —

lesbian makorra is kind of my favorite tbh. ik people always justly mock That One Post but also there's something inherently sapphic about them that is absolutely unshakeable in my delusional affections for these two characters. this is the post that has permenantly ingrained itself into my brain and fundamentally changed how i will ever read mako because i like canon mako but i actually like fem mako even more. he just kinda deserves to be a girl yknow,,, oh and also the flavor of Trauma:tm:.

i also really like canon makorra (yes ik they fucked up and i do like korrasami, but i'm a firm believer that they always meant the world to each other no matter how it manifested. s4 makorra could've been so much,,) BUT lesbian makorra is actually kind of like. um. holy.

conceptually, 17 year old brash-unapologetic-wholeheartedly-passionate avatar korra seeing the world for the first time and falling fast in love with some insanely-tall deeply-repressed-stoic firebender girl with insurmountable trauma from fighting tooth and nail to keep herself and her little brother alive since the age of eight,,, that turns the wheels in my brain SO MUCH. mako's an asshole to her, the first person to really treat korra that way, because she doesn't care if she's the avatar or not — she's going to treat people based on how she perceives their own merit because titles have never meant anything on the streets. they argue because they're both self-righteous but they fight together so well like they've known each other for lives before. mako has never had time in her life or space in her heart for more than one other, yet still; slowly and slowly she falls for this bright-determined-brave-incredible girl who loves with all her heart. it's not something she's used to with how her own love has been weathered away by this blasted world, but maybe she could get used to this. ANYWAY makorra could just be so girl for girl.

(side note, mako as a girl is absolutely lesbian as hell but in canon i honestly really like aro mako loll. idk how to express it; they fundamentally should be the same two people, but also the energy is just so different in some inexplicable way. side note on shipping: i like korrasami but i like like makorra and i really like makorrasami because i'm one of those three people who actually likes masami too for just-trust-me-bro reasons haha)

[honnojis]

hello Zumi have you ever tried competitive Pokémon on smogon?

Nop, never really was my thing. I used to play on showdown, sure, but it'd usually be random battles or hackmons. Actual competitive play stressed me out a bit too much, and I had a really terrible experience when i tried getting into it a bit more by applying for a spot as a leader for an online league, so I've just never bothered since.

Shoutout to Bibs for being a homie w/ hackmons/random battles tho. that shit was fun and i miss it sometimes

For the drama bit, I'll just put it under the cut bc no one really needs to see a wall of text ab me getting salty about it again but wow i sure still think about it sometimes. this was all skype era shit btw, but it's arguably one of the very few things that literally had me seething, which is why I've never bothered with anything comp related since

Funnily enough, the drama wasn't even related to the actual competitive aspect of the whole league that I was supposed to be a part of -- it was bc someone on the league's board committee was awfully petty and two-faced LOL… All bc they didn't like I was potentially going to overshadow their work.

I actually knew them well before this. They were pretty friendly towards me at first, and they initially approached me because wanted to learn how to do pixel art better, so I taught them! They acted really grateful when I gave them advice, and hell, they even did some sprites for Rejuvenation at the time as it was at a time that I was extremely busy with school.

Now fast forward a bit, and a group of ppl from the same community set up an online Showdown league, with leaders for each type. That person was on the board committee, but some other members of the board committee were going behind their back in order to actually recruit me for the league as a leader. I passed the tryouts, and got into the group.

Kicker is, the reason why they went behind the person's back, is bc apparently That Person(TM) was absolutely adamant about not wanting me on the team!

The reason for that?

They didn't want me there so I couldn't get a chance to do any art for the league, because they were afraid they'd get overshadowed by me.

This sounds like bragging, and god i fucking WISH I was kidding in that regard, but I'm completely serious 💀 Apparently ANOTHER league wanted my assistance for sprites, but because That Person(TM) was already on the team, they started throwing a shitfit about how they absolutely could NOT work together with me without wanting to give a real reason, they just kept insisting that they absolutely couldn't. The chatlogs of these moments were sent to me after a group of ppl who were getting aggression aimed at them from the person.

I kinda pieced things together because they were sucking up to me for art advice until they learned what they needed, then I lost contact with them until I got drafted for the league, after which they just... Wanted to chew me out instead, lol. despite never having done anything to prompt such hatred. all i did was help and be nice. and after seeing the logs it kinda clicked in my head that that's what was going on.

funnily enough this all happened around the time they were sucking up to jan bc they were asked to do some work for rejuv, but that shit fell through real quick once jan got the logs of all the shit they've been saying lmao

A whole bunch of shit happened after that, but basically I left the league, some ppl left bc I left, other members got fed up w/ That Person(TM)'s shit and the whole league crumbled before it ever got the chance to take off LOL.

It's genuinely one of the worst feelings I've ever experienced that someone abused my trust in a person like that, only using me for my skills, and it actually gave me some trust issues for a few years whenever people asked me for art advice!

i had a whole document of bullshit that this person pulled. i still actually have it somewhere, and frankly i probably should just delete it at some point bc it has no use and i haven't seen this person around in a long time bc they basically got chased out of the community for being a shithead. in my defense for that document though, the fact that a person drove me to get so mad that i started collecting receipts on them kinda tells how hurt i got about this whole situation. to say they were an awful person not only just to me but to a lot of my friends as well is an understatement

[pikaflute]

sam and max 001 :^))

smiling and giggling. this got long because of autism.

when I started shipping it if I did

i think like. legally if you play the telltale games or consume any sam and max media youre required to think they're a old married couple. it's the law. i also thought they were gay when my tumblr mutuals put sam and max gay comps and art on my dash for many years. and shoutout to that one person who put max's penis on my dashboard too.

and special shout out to my friend teddy for getting me into these games we're going to be fighting in gladiatorial combat but like we'll be kissing while we do so.

my thoughts

theyre going to hell. like for real. do you know how much time i've spent thinking about them these past two months. like. i have a 6000+ word fic still brewing, two wips of ideas that i will probably not finish, and two google docs of headcanons for them. and my THREE playlists for them. here they are btw:

general s&m playlist - he let me hit cause i'm goofy as hell

sam playlist - look at my detective dawg, he's doomed by the narrative

max playlist - UNIDENTIFIED THING! BLOW IT UP NOW!!!

i have also spent so much on those sam and max figurines and the max plush. we're all lucky i haven't found keychains or pins yet to make an itabag. joking. maybe. anyway they're very cute and special to me. i love them so much and i love the way they love. im throwing pipe bombs at them

What makes me happy about them

i love the way they love. seriously, i read the comics over the weekend and they were very funny and very cute together. that whole road trip they took together was so adorable. i also love their interactions in hit the road. the lousy golfer bit is the most married they've ever been in my mind.

i just love couples who have been together for so long that their love language is funny banter. there's a part in 303 where sam finds max's brain and they immediately get into an argument because max was too loud. keep in mind sam just went through all the stops and was so broken up about losing max but they still have time to do this. in 304 before max turns into a monster he fucks with sam. it's really funny.

love them so much. sam throwing max out a window is a declaration of love to me.

What makes me sad about them

im under the impression that telltale games still needs to be tried in court for episode 305. like treason. TREASON. anyway post 305, they're together again (yay) but things have to be different right. like this new max does things differently than what our max did and it's making sam question if this is right. like is this really helping him let go of max? also he feels like if he gets close to this max he'll end up losing him again as he did everything he could to save max but it ended up failing at every step of the way.

meanwhile max is bottling everything up inside because he doesn't want to think about it. when he does eventually think about it, he feels awful and feels like he killed sam and is now thinking whether or not if he should stay to not allow sam to feel anymore miserable about losing max. he doesn't want to hurt sam anymore and will sacrifice his own happiness by being with sam to do that.

anyway that fic should be done soon. looking at you autistically

things done in fanfic that annoys me

surprisingly: ive only read like two sam and max fanfics (that were about them specifically, i read my lovely friend teddy's stuff because we're soul bonded) and one of them is my own draft. i think just in general, they should already be married in the fic. like even post 305 they should like get married again. sam and max have been married ever since max got one of those spider rings from sam at age 5.

things I look for in fanfic

i think they should be annoying. and in love. that's it. actually also give sam a hug max, please. please he needs a hug after the shit in season 3.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other

i'm under the impression that they need to be a couple or else. like the world is going to collapse if they don't get hitched 50 times. also i don't think anyone else is right for them besides each other.

but. i have an image for this. do you get it. walk with me.

My happily ever after for them

not living in new york for one. but seriously, i think a lot of people imagine them retiring at some point, but honestly i think they would be freelance police until the end. they just love to do what they do: sam because he loves to be a detective and be with max and max because he loves to be the "long arm of the law" aka shoot people and be with sam. when they do die they're gonna terrorize hell too. you will never separate them ever again.

if they ever retire however, they are living in new jersey for my sake. i hate new york.

who is the big spoon/little spoon

"oh wouldnt sam be the big spoon because hes like 6 feet?" yeah but max is like a cunt. he tries spooning sam and sam lets him because he's a) tired and b) doesn't want to get bit right now. half way through the night sam either rolls onto max or max wants to be cuddled instead and max tries to get sam to change positions and wake up and sam ignores him because he knew this was going to happen because it happens literally every night.

what is their favorite non-sexual activity

throwing rocks at each other. but also i think they really like doing any silly shit together. watching movies together but making fun of them. playing poker and max shooting the cards when he loses (which is often). them playing video games together and max breaking his controller because he lost (also happens often). them goofing off on cases. going to a diner for dinner and annoying everyone there. they just love to spend time together with one another. its so cute.

[randomvarious]

Today's compilation:

Lazy Afternoon 2001 Soul / R&B / Jazz / Adult Contemporary

I'll have you know that I really love it when brands release these stupid-as-hell, ephemeral promo comps that try to offer you a glimpse into their product's "personality." Over the years I've gotten to know that the Czech version of Sprite loves lots of trip hop and big beat tunes, Pottery Barn's into classic soul, Levi's has something of a country-rock streak, and Mercedes-Benz digs themselves some chill European lounge grooves. And I've also been on the hunt for a while now to learn what the windshield wiper company Rain X listens to, but their promo has proven to be elusive to me thus far 😔. But we love to treat our brands like people though, don't we folks?

So, here's one of those promos from a Dutch beer company called Brand Bier that sells in the US as Royal Brand. Currently owned by Heineken, they've been brewing since the *14th century*, and have been known as Brand since the 1870s. And given that deep history, you might think that their taste in music goes way back too, but what this 2001 CD seems to suggest is that this particular beer's love for tunes actually only begins in the early 50s 🤔. And their genres of choice? Why, soul, R&B, and a little bit of jazz, of course, and almost all of it from North America too!

And unlike a bunch of other brand promo comps that I've sifted through, this one's actually pretty well-put-together. It's a bit of a cheat code since it has a bunch of enormous hits on it, like Bill Withers' "Ain't No Sunshine," The Isley Brothers' "That Lady," Blood, Sweat & Tears' "Spinning Wheel," and Marvin Gaye's "Sexual Healing," but you'd probably never expect an Aretha Franklin deep cut, like her jazz-pop rendition of George & Ira Gershwin's "It Ain't Necessarily So," which appeared on her 1960 debut album, to be on a CD like this one. That song was never released as a single and it predates her rise to superstardom by about six or seven years.

So, sometimes I find that CDs like these serve better as coasters than they do as soundtracks for which to drink your beer by, but the photo used for this album's cover seems to nail the vibe pretty perfectly here. This is just a pleasant hour's-plus worth of classic tunes to sit on a floor and sip a beverage to; but stay away from the small handful of more modern adult contemporary 90s selections, though, because those tunes don't seem to have aged nearly as well as any of the ones that were recorded before them.

Highlights:

Bill Withers - "Who Is He (And What Is He to You?)" The Isley Brothers - "Who's That Lady" Earth, Wind & Fire - "Reasons" Blood, Sweat & Tears - "Spinning Wheel" Marvin Gaye - "Sexual Healing" The Manhattans - "Kiss and Say Goodbye" Billy Paul - "Me and Mrs. Jones" Aretha Franklin - "It Ain't Necessarily So" Louis Armstrong - "Mack the Knife" Bill Withers - "Ain't No Sunshine"

[charmingbrute]

She's not asking him out on Valentione's Day. Not at all. If she's wearing a tight black dress and heels, it's just a coincidence. It's also fortuitous that she made a reservation to eat at the Last Stand tonight. And, since Hyperion is also here, he should accompany her. Also, she only gets up on her toes to fix his hair and slide a flower into it because it's a mess. "You should accompany me unless you have something better to do. It's been a long day, and I'd appreciate some company." When she spoke with Urianger, she could have invited him to join her. She also could have asked Krile to accompany her when they went to the library earlier… but no, not it's just a coincidence that she wants some company /now/.

It's going to be a long night. As soon as the sun descended, he stood in front of a mirror, tried to straighten himself for the hundredth time today. He decided to wear his best jacket, fashioned just mere days ago, and his hair had never been more neatly combed. He checked his appearance once more, ran his hands over his clothes to ensure there would be no wrinkles. A deep breath was then taken, his skin racing with nerves as he thought about the woman he wanted to ask out on Valentione's Day. It could be the start of something special and he wanted everything to go well. Despite his nervousness, he mustered up the courage to leave his given room in Old Sharlayan to search for her.

He had arrived at the Last Stand and decided to lean against the nearby fence, watching people sip their coffee and appearing occupied in thoughts amidst of it. He had lost count of how many times they've frequented it, and it became a special place in his mind because it's where the Scions of the Seventh Dawn enjoyed a couple of hearty meals. Nervously, he twirled his fingers against an amulet he was given, deep in contemplation. For a long time he had been harboring feelings for her and finally he decided that it wouldn't hurt to invite her to spend time together alone. He didn't know the best way to do it, if he should just be more straightforward and simply ask her, or mayhaps writing her a note would convey his intentions better and slip it under her door. The possibility of rejection was holding him back, but he knew godsdamned well that he had to at least try.

Still, he went back and forth in his mind for what felt like several bells, questioning whether he should go through it or not. He thought for sure his decision had been cemented days ago, but now that the moment has arrived, he's filled with immeasurable doubt. What will happen if she says no? How will it affect things between the both of them? A knot stirred in his stomach, but it's naught that he couldn't endure. He could endure seven hells for her.

His eyes gave the Last Stand one final glance before leaving to go forward with his search. Suddenly, his gaze fell upon a certain Miqo'te and he couldn't believe his luck. Y'shtola's right before him, standing straight and still and already looking at him. It must be fate, he pondered, which brought them together in this time. Fraught with uncertainty, he cleared his throat to grab her attention further. The sight of her was quick to provide him a sense of relief and joy, knowing that he could finally ask her out and not rethink it any further.

And yet, before he could even dare speak, she extended her hand to adjust his hair, making sure every strand is in place. There's a perfect rush of affection towards her when she slid down a flower into his jacket, a small but meaningful gesture, though admittedly it made him feel ashamed that he didn't have enough time to get her some in kind. At the flower he looked down, and then back at her, taking in her appearance. She's wore a black dress which hugged her curves so refined in all the right places, and a pair of heels which made her legs look much longer. If he desired her before, it only grew as he observed more of her, captivated by her wholly, and admired her in all angles.

Company, yes. He didn't need to ask. She already had in mind to spend the day with him. By coincidence or not, he didn't care. It only mattered that she had chosen him, whether just for tonight or the many nights to follow. He decided to lead the way and walk pass her, but not without leaning close until his quickened breath could be felt. He just had to whisper in her ear and pray tell her what he saw.

"Your beauty always leaves me in awe, but tonight, you have surpassed even my wildest imagination. I can only imagine the heads you will turn, and the hearts you will leave fluttering in your wake, mine included."

[lookatmysillies]

Going off of Rock's comment that this is essentially the modern au where they're all in high school:

Kyo is That One Kid who's super quiet and barely talks to anyone and yet everyone seems to be in love with him. To be fair to them, he hit a major growth spurt in high school and rides a skateboard to school, so let's be real, who wouldn't be a little bit in love with him. He sticks with Castor most of the time, as well as Jae and Evon (@kofeedoggo). He wrestles for the position of captain of the swim team with his rival, Aegaeon (@paradisedisconcert) and both thinks she's annoying and respects her. Most of the time at lunch, he sits and reads or plays games on his phone while Cas talks his ear off. He's pretty nice and easy to like, although when someone pisses him off, he makes it VERY well known.

Castor is popular and is always taking photos at school events for the yearbook with one of the younger club members, Eddy, and Azure (whenever he bothers to show up). He physically cannot sit still in class and would probably get voted class clown in the yearbook based on the sheer amount of absurd things he does. Most people like him, some find him absolutely unbearable. He frequently bothers his little brother Nyx (@rockwgooglyeyes) in the halls. Girls think it's adorable! Nyx decidedly doesn't.

Tallis is extremely shy and standoffish. He doesn't have much of a social life at school; he sticks with the people he knows, mainly Himei and Tov, and doesn't try to expand his circle. He's the friend who has to be given 24 hours' notice before a hangout. He's poked fun at by his friends for how seriously he takes his schoolwork; he frequently pulls all-nighters studying for tests, and during free time at school, he can almost always be found practicing one instrument or another in the band room, most often the harp, violin, cello, flute, or piano. No one actually knows how many instruments he plays. He and Khoi (@bittersweet-adagio) are the best the school band has to offer and can basically waltz into the first chair of whatever instrument they want. He and Stasya (@billwasnot) have been friends since they went to the same preschool and are study buddies.

Himei, like Castor, is very outgoing and pretty popular! She and Dian, nice as they are, are known to be shit talkers, although for the most part they only talk shit about people who really deserve it. She and Dian are best friends and do practically everything together, and Rose sometimes hangs out with them too. Himei is in drama club, mostly for the stage outfits, although she's a good actress, too. She, Tallis, and Tov are all super close; it's hard to tell what the deal with them is. Dian is the person Himei tells everything to, because sometimes, her secrets involve Tallis and Tov. She lives across the street from the Morgensterns (Cas, Nyx, Auri), and her house is basically the second hangout hub for the kids. She has an older brother and a younger sister.

Itsaso is in the same boat as Tallis with shyness; she's new in the high school the OCs go to after moving miles and miles away from her hometown. She was treated poorly in her last school and is nervous around people as a result. She and Nausikaa are basically the cat/golden retriever trope and nerd/jock trope rolled into one. Itsaso knows nothing about sports but goes to all Nausi's games to cheer her on, and Nausi is shit at English Comp but thinks Itsaso's writing is "lit" and reads everything she writes. They're the kind of high school couple that everyone is 99% sure will probably get married in the future. Itsaso is also friends with Naz and Eddy through Nausi. I can see her and Himei becoming friendly through book club, too.

Naz is a bit of a fucking mess, but she tries. She's that one kid who seems like they've never NOT had braces?? They get bad grades and get into fights sometimes. They generally just seem like a jerk until you get to know them, then it turns out they're really sweet, just troubled. She and Nausi seem like the type of friends who maybe tried kissing once just to see if they felt any sort of way about it, then burst out laughing afterwards. Naz is dating Akane and brags frequently about how she's dating a senior.

Eddy doesn't really know how to socialize and can be pretty awkward, but they're a sweet kid. They're very invested in their little brother, Sebastian (@sotogalmo), seem to get good grades easily, and always has a camera on them to take pictures for the yearbook or for their own portfolio. The basketball team has been trying to get it to join for years because of its height. They're a bit of an outsider, lacking many friends, but they like and feel close to Nausi and Itsaso. Maybe Nene too because I feel like it would be hilarious if they were friends in the AU.

Aaaand finally, Yael is just weird. He's just a weird little guy. He kind of scares people. He doesn't have many friends, ALSO gets into fights (mainly with Naz), doesn't seem into sports, socializing, or academics... kind of a difficult one to figure out. They're drawn to Kio, Yume, and Macbeth (@alien-til-i-stage) all for very different reasons.

HI sorry for bothering again but what would your alnst OCs be like in that one Anakt Highschool au

[saucylittlesmile]

anonymous  asked:

I really enjoy the way you write about VM. Please don't stop. At least not for a while yet! As a newish fan, can you tell me more about VM friendship with Max/Tati and Carolina and how it came to be? Are they close-ish amongst fellow skaters? I suppose skaters might tend to socialize with skaters doing other types of skating rather than with direct competitors but I am not sure how often their paths would cross other than shows? Unless you train at the same place.

I remember a few years back, and interview bit that related to VM and Patrick.  IIRC, it was Tessa, talking about how it was nice to get to know Patrick better, as they were touring together, because it was really the only time they got to hang out together outside of ‘work’.  At competitions, skaters are mostly too busy with their own skating to hang out, except for the gala practice and banquet (and probably partying after the comps have finished, LOL).  Someone like Patrick would have also had some extra time because of Skate Canada events or sponsorship events.    

For Max/Tati or Carolina, it would have been even fewer chances to hang out, though elite skating is a small world and most skaters of similar ages would have known each other since they were young.  Obviously, as they began having the opportunities to tour more, their acquaintanceship would have grown, and into something very fond, I think.  But how close everyone really is?  Hard to say... I think that they probably enjoy each other’s company, when in each other’s company, but probably don’t make a point to socialize in person otherwise (social media is another aspect).  

Start things off with a trilogy of Max and Scott, 2004-2019.

[sunskate]

The 4 IAM.O teams who are homegrown from Ilderton all started at the Ilderton Skating Club:

Lily Hensen and Nathan Lickers: 21/21 yo. They've been skating together since 2012 - only 3 other teams in all of IAM have been together as long. Ontario is a competitive place to skate, but they've made it to Nationals at each level - 12th in Novice, 6th in Junior, and 9th in Senior this year. They probably would have been sent to a JGP in 2020-21, the year the series unfortunately was cancelled for covid. From their long experience, they skate well in sync and are more comfortable and skilled skating in hold and close together than many teams. Flexibility and extension are areas that aren't strengths, but they said they're doing ballet and yoga classes now, and they've grown in expression and polish since they started working regularly with Scott and now Adrian and Madi. Their level of focus feels ramped up, and their programs this year are strong. This feels like a season when they're aiming to make an impression in Canada (or at least on Skate Canada) and build some momentum.

Maia Iannetta/Liam Carr: they went to a Skate Canada development camp in June but withdrew from the Quebec competition in August and haven't appeared on the lists for any other comps so far, so I'm not sure what's happening with them. Maia was at the rink last week in one of Christina's stories, so she seems to be training. They were 14th at Jr Nationals in 2020, seniored up in 2020-21, and were 12th at Sr Nationals in 2022.

Layla Veillon/Alexander Brandys: 16/17 yo. They are the current 🇨🇦 Novice National Champs and are in their 1st junior season. They've already been skating together at least 7 years. Novice skaters do 2 pattern dances and a FD at every competition. So in Layla and Alex's skating, anything resembling a pattern or skating in hold, they have deep edges and can do well - you can see why they won. Other elements like lifts and spins feel less honed at this point, but they're young and have 2 more seasons in junior after this one. And already had a JGP assignment, so they're doing well and have time to grow and move up.

Jordyn Lewis/Noah McMillan: 18/18 (almost 19) yo. They were skating as Juveniles in 2016, so they've been together at least 6 years. They were 6th at Novice Nats in 2020. This is at least their 2nd junior season, and they have one more after this one before they age up into seniors. They recently received a 2nd JGP assignment, which is a vote of confidence. Their FD this season is really good; they had a tango FD in 2021-22 that had some striking moments and they've carried that music into this year's RD.

These two skate with their blades making long and steady contact with the ice which gives them a beautiful look that's different from the surfacey way many teams skate. They're not the fastest team, but they look like they generate their power in the right way. Judging is all over the place, but the Finnish judge at JGP RIga ranked them #1 in PCS in the entire competition for the RD, and the quality of these fundamentals is probably why. They have some nice lifts. Performance skills are developing- faster styles or the FD which require more variety show a little more where they have room to grow.

The longevity of these teams speaks well of the Ilderton program, and the 3 we've seen who leveled up to IAM.O last season look motivated but not stressed out, which is a credit to their training environment

[imaginarydragonling]

18 and 19 for the weird writing asks

18. Choose a passage from your writing. Tell me about the backstory of this moment. How you came up with it, how it changed from start to end. Spicy addition: Questioner provides the passage.

With a cry, Shigeru wrests the blade from Kyoutani’s hand, twisting his arm while bringing a knee up into Kyoutani’s unprotected stomach. Kyoutani lets go with a grunt, and Shigeru’s shield clatters to the floor. He grabs Kyoutani by the collar, slams him up against the wall, and points the tip of the sword at Kyoutani’s exposed neck.

The shock in Kyoutani’s eyes fades into acceptance, shutting Shigeru out.

"You did it." Kyoutani’s voice is calm—too calm. He raises his chin to Shigeru, exposing his throat to Shigeru even more. "Do it." Kyoutani’s gaze holds his, unyielding. "Don't hold back. Like we promised."

The sword in his hand trembles and Kyoutani closes his eyes. Shigeru bites his lip and tastes blood. "How can you accept this?" he all but shouts. Kyoutani’s eyes fly open. Shigeru’s fist holding Kyoutani’s collar tightens. "Why aren't you trying to fight back?"

Kyoutani blinks. "You won. Fair and square.” Shigeru hates the next words that come out of Kyoutani’s mouth. “It was always going to end in one of two ways. Those are the rules."

"Since when do you care about rules?" Shigeru hisses.

"I've been fighting alone all my life. Until I met you. I'm glad I met you, Yahaba."

"Fuck you."

Kyoutani's face fills with grief, acceptance, and understanding. Shigeru can’t bear to look at it. He closes his eyes, closes the distance between them, and presses their lips together.

It's a reckless and desperate act. Shigeru fully expects Kyoutani to pull back, to wrench the sword from Shigeru's grip and plunge it into his breast. But even upon pain of death, Shigeru chooses this. Kyoutani will kill him for it, but Shigeru decides that he'd rather die and tell Kyoutani how he really feels than leave these feelings unspoken. It’s a stupid way to tell someone you love them. So prone to misunderstanding and rejection from surprise, suspicion, or plain old shock. At any moment now, Kyoutani is going to recover from the shock. And that will be the end of Shigeru’s life. So be it.

This is from my most recently published fic on Ao3, Champions. The backstory for this moment is largely in the subtext (there's exposition on it just before this passage but I was trying to convey most of the emotional story between Kyoutani and Yahaba in the passage itself).

The fic itself is a KyouHaba enemies-to-lovers story that is based on a Greek legend where each is a champion for a Greek god and they are supposed to fight to the death.

They've had to compete in several challenges before this and Yahaba's feelings have changed and grown over time.

I think the spirit and core of this passage has stayed the same from idea conception to final draft, but getting the thoughts out in paper and into prose I'm happy enough with to post has been more of a struggle than you would expect just from looking at the draft versions 🥲

19. Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?

It started with me watching the Haikyuu!! anime and absolutely falling in love with the series. This was back in 2015, I think, and after watching season 1, I wanted more content.

Cue Google which led me to fanfiction.net where I stumbled across an IwaOi fanfic. I found it again on Ao3 (which made it easier/nicer to read), got hooked on fanfiction, and the rest is history :)

Fanfic seemed like something I could do decently well (as opposed to, say, art) to contribute to the fandom so I started writing. I always knew writing itself wasn't as easy as it sounded, so I initially wrote and posted to Ao3 as a way to get feedback and improve my writing.

That didn't go so well because I really just heard crickets and the comments that I did get on my fic were all complimentary as opposed to critical (which is great, but didn't help me that much to grow as a writer).

So to keep learning, I followed writing advice on Tumblr, followed writing advice blogs, and just tried to keep writing. I found that asking a friend directly for feedback was helpful, and I've been fortunate enough to find one or two fandom friends who like me enough to read my stuff and give me feedback on it.

Other than that, I've tried joining writing servers, organising writing exercises to do with a group of writer friends, and participating in exchanges and bangs in an effort to figure out ways to write better/faster/more.

These days, I mostly write for myself. I find it a calming activity and it's satisfying to me just to be able to say I've completed writing a story. I've kind of given up on connecting with fandom. I just want to write and tell the story that I want to tell.

I'm not sure where I'm going with my writing. I have to think of writing as work and I try to write everyday to turn it into a habit. Maybe it will always just stay as a hobby. Right now, it's an accomplishment for me to just be able to finish a couple of long fic stories that I've spent a lot of time thinking about, so that's what I'm focusing on right now.

Thanks for asking!

Weird questions for writers

[backupbackup2]

It has been 2 & a Half Months since my Adoptive Dad passedaway of a Heartattack at 51 yearsold. 6 months before that he picked me up from my failed attempt at independence in Arizona, guilt tripped me into a "Boys Trip" to Vegas, which was an utter dumpster fire. We were in Vegas for one day. He spent the drive there venting in great detail about how Mentally Ill he & everyone as at home is + a Shakespearean monologue on the pharmaceuticals they are all on. He spent the breakfast hours of the next day putting me back in the spot I held as a child: his Therapist & Emotional Punchingbag.

Since 10 yearsold my spoken-unspoken job has been to carry the emotional burdens of my adoptive-dad (directly) & by extension the emotional burdens of both my adoptive parent's families (indirectly). That is too much emotional baggage for a 10, 16, or a 25 yearold to solve alone.

I am self aware enough to know I'm not Perfect. Infact - I'm self aware enough to know that a family should not force the standard of Perfection ("You're the Perfect Child!" "You have to be Perfect!") as soon as he can speak. I realize my wrongs - I am a Drunkard who has spent the better part of the last 5 years stonewalling most of his Adoptives out of his life save the part where I never made an Independent Adult of myself. I spent much of these last leeching handout$ from my a-mom so I can afford rent. My money issues obviously come from how much I spent the last couple years Binge Drinking.

I get it. I am an Ungrateful Child. I am a Bad Son. I am Undeserving of All that has been bestowed on me. But why do I know those things? How? From who? Why are those three sentences my internalization of childhood? That I recognize my wrongs in no way invalidates how perverse a relationship I had with my adoptive-father.

I am simple. I can handle someone going full Scorched Earth about me. I see the Wrongness that I am.

I am all too aware of all the flaws of my Adoptives: Marital Rape, STDs, Business Sabotage, Rampant Adultery & Alcoholism, & so much more. All of this hidden behind the veneer of White Collar White Teeth WASP Americana. It is easier for them to hide their evils behind a False Happy Face then for them to risk healing themselves (meaning: much needed divorces). A 10 year old cannot bare all the pains of his own dad - letalome of his mother, uncles & aunts, & grandparents.

The bitter cherry atop this all is they've zero idea how over-aware I am of their scandals & how overwhelming it is to have to play stupid around them when you're aware of all their dirty laundry. If my Birth-Parents were this rotten you people never would have let me live it down.

"What do you think about this, Son?" "How would you react to this, Son?" "Any thoughts on this, Son?" - I don't care, I don't care, I don't care! It is not my duty to solve your own life traumas, I cannot solve your Marital Issues (Thankyou for letting me know I cause a lot of those BTW), I have no idea how to fix how rotten your own family & your In-Laws are.

I've spent these last two months in a depressive rage. I'm finally piecing together the mosaic that is my childhood. I keep going over these articles on Parentification/Enmeshment & realizing how intimately they mirror my own childhood. I don't want to go to Work, don't want to Eat or Drink, I don't even want to Read. I want to righteously unveil this Rage I hold.

You couldn't mold me into the Perfect Child. You have made it very clear as a teen & a grown up that I am "a POS go-nowhere do-nothing Student who'll become a POS go-nowhere do-nothing Adult". Instead of molding me into Perfection you forced me into Counselorhood. I have very arguably failed at both.

I am grateful you people kept me from a life stuck in Foster Care but I loathe being around you. I can rant endlessly about what wellness you people have worked for, yes. I have done that plenty enough in the appropriate channels. But another Truth needs be faced: most won't face I have genuine complaints against them because they adopted me.

I'll be intown forawhile to see my younger brother's through the grief of this death. None of these people were there when my Birth-Mom passedaway. Thanks for apologizing a decade later for not being there for me but honestly IDK what to do with a decade late apology.

It is not a Child's Job to Fix His Family.

It is not a Child's Job to Fix His Family.

It is not a Child's Job to Fix His Family.

[punkscowardschampions]

Buster & Rio

Buster: I miss you Rio: Guarantee I miss you more Buster: State your case then Rio: 😍😍 Buster: That's a strong introduction, how are you gonna follow it through? Rio: 🤤🤤 Buster: I like the thread of your argument, I can't lie, but I still miss you more Buster: 'Cause a girl was flirting with me in the gym and after telling her all the ways she doesn't compare to you, how incomparable you are was, and is, all I could think about Rio: As much as I probably shouldn't encourage you to be rude to random girls Rio: I love that you do so Buster: She embarrassed herself long before I embarrassed her, reckoning she had a chance Rio: I know what you mean Rio: the stalker has been getting inventive today Buster: Tell me Rio: We're doing this whole project in comp sci about viruses and shit Rio: and they've sent a meant-to-be-creepy spam type email Rio: it's got attachments but Rio: I've not looked yet Buster: Send it to me, I'll open it for you Rio: I know it's unlikely they're that smart Rio: but what if it does have some computer-killing 👾 attached? Buster: Smart enough that we haven't worked out who they are yet Buster: but if it's a virus, I'll buy another laptop Rio: it seems ridiculous Rio: this proves it has to be someone at school now, at least Rio: it's not like I've posted about my fucking homework anywhere Buster: How big's that class? Buster: Can discount my sister and your brother already, like Rio: Don't Rio: you're about the only person I've not thought it could be at my craziest Rio: probably about 30 odd though, standard Buster: Baby, they're the crazy one and I'm not letting them drive you even slightly close to the edge Buster: Who do you know and who don't you, percentage wise? Rio: I thought I knew everyone in this school, this town Rio: you'd think if someone was as creepy as this, anyway, that you'd know, they'd fucking stick out a bit but no Buster: It ain't a film, there's no creepy music playing to give it away Rio: if it was, it'd be dragging Rio: time for the resolve and happy ending Buster: Yeah, I know Buster: You wanna try calling that helpline again? Rio: Maybe Rio: I just wanna talk to you Rio: that's more helpful Buster: It's the least bullshit lead we've had for ages, I'll find a way to narrow it down more somehow Buster: We've got an obsession with you in common, it'll be me who figures it out if any cunt can Rio: Yours is the only one I need Buster: If you need to stay here for a while I'll sort it with my parents, yours, school, whoever Buster: You know that Rio: I know Rio: it's more and more tempting to not leave every time I go Buster: I just want you to be able to take an actual deep fucking breath Buster: Like you said, the amount of time this has been going on is ridiculous Rio: I can forget about it, most of the time Rio: but it's when something new happens, unexpected Buster: I'll kill him when we work out who it is Buster: 'Til then, stay with me Buster: He never does fuck all when you're here Rio: At least that's quick Rio: too nice if anything, babe Rio: always say that about you Buster: It don't have to be quick or nice Buster: Don't underestimate me, babe Rio: 🤤🤤 I rest my case Buster: I love you, that rests mine Buster: I'd do anything for you Rio: I love you so much Rio: I'd definitely be crazy without you, stalker or otherwise Buster: There's a fair chance I'd be stalking you too if things were any different between us Buster: I'd leave better presents though Rio: and I'd know it was you always Buster: 'Course Buster: I'd want you to know Rio: hence there's no world in which we ain't a thing Buster: [has bought her the most expensive and best ever anti virus software and all that jazz so sends her the deets like there you go] Rio: this really has everything Rio: thank you Buster: He ain't gonna be smart enough to get through that, I've been reading reviews since you told me Buster: And I have it too now so you don't have to worry about sending me whatever bullshit he does to you Rio: We can open it together then? Rio: [I think it shouldn't be camgirl moments but something @school to drive that home] Buster: Yeah, on the count of three Rio: [just some creeper shots all throughout the day up until that lesson] Rio: these are today, I'm 99% sure Rio: I swapped my bag Buster: Forget going there tomorrow, I'm booking you a flight here instead Buster: I'll think of a lie to tell my parents if you still don't want anyone else to know the truth Rio: there was always the possibility Rio: but now I know it's someone I really see in person Rio: every day Rio: jesus Buster: I meant what I said, I'm gonna find out who, whatever it takes Buster: I know it feels fucked, but it's good, that it's one of 30 classmates rather than the numbers of lads who watch your streams Rio: it's true Rio: but those lads could be anywhere in the world, not in the same room as me Buster: Which is why you shouldn't be in that room until we know which sick cunt it is Buster: Just give me some time, it's not like I don't have the money to throw at it Rio: I couldn't be there if I had to Rio: I don't even want to be here at home now Buster: How soon can you be at the airport? Rio: not for a while Rio: I mean, tonight, maybe Rio: what should I tell my mam? Buster: Tell her I'm having a breakdown, it wouldn't be the first time Buster: I'll trash the house for realism if it comes to it, like Rio: it'll keep her from being worried Rio: pissed off is fine, I'll deal with that when I can Buster: Exactly Buster: And Ava's at a friend's so I don't have to worry about scaring the shit out of her with my acting Buster: 'Cause it'd be stupid not to feed my parents the same lie Rio: You don't have to go that method Rio: but I wouldn't blame you Rio: I'm trying to keep my freak out internal because I'm looking after the twins and your sister is on her way Buster: I'm glad you're not on your own, even if the company is Nance Rio: I was kinda hoping someone took the homework too seriously and was pranking the whole class Rio: but nah, the email was more specific than I let on to her, of course Rio: even before the pictures Buster: 'Course you were Buster: He'd been quiet for a while Rio: really think he'd get bored at some point Rio: I never react, respond, everything they tell you Buster: Now isn't really the time for me to reiterate how stalkable you are again when I can do better with compliments Rio: the fact you can make me smile even at this time Buster: I can do better than that too, I'll make you forget about it Rio: yeah? Buster: Yeah Rio: I need that Rio: my head is all over the place Buster: You've got it, and whatever else you need Rio: I only feel really safe when I'm with you Buster: You are safe with me, but you won't have to leave until you're also safe everywhere else Buster: I'm gonna fix it Rio: yeah Buster: I know I've said it before but this time I swear Buster: He fucked up by giving us a decent clue Rio: it does narrow it down Rio: even if it isn't the class, and it's just the school in general Rio: that's the most we've ever had to go on Buster: Exactly Rio: but what do we do Rio: if we work it out Buster: I told you, I'll kill him Rio: so you're the only one that ends up in prison Buster: I'm not a fucking amateur, babe Rio: mm Rio: 🙄😏 Buster: Hilarious Buster: Nance will be a way more receptive audience though Rio: yeah, really in the mood for this study sesh now Buster: I can easily change hers if you wanna get out of it Rio: nah Rio: I need to keep things normal Rio: only just invited her over, it'd be weird to change my mind Buster: You can blame me for that as well, I don't give a shit Rio: I can't leave yet, like you said, distraction is probably a good thing Buster: Alright, what can I do to make it a more bearable one? Buster: [loads of her fave things getting delivered to this gaff like don't be scared to answer your door, look they are all from me, here's the order confirmations] Rio: I don't deserve you Buster: You don't deserve the bullshit he's putting you through, you've always deserved me Rio: I feel like I should just Rio: stop the streams Rio: I know you aren't meant to change your lifestyle and habits for them but it wouldn't have happened if I weren't doing that shit Rio: I know you aren't meant to change your lifestyle and habits for them but it wouldn't have happened if I weren't doing that shit Buster: Fuck that, we know he's from school Buster: Being able to see you every day pre-dates anything you've done online Buster: He could've known you since primary Rio: I guess Rio: but would he be bothered if there was less out there to stalk Buster: It's not your fault, Rio Buster: It can happen to anyone, you know that Rio: it's happening to me though Buster: Not 'cause of anything you've done Buster: Come on Rio: anyway Rio: I'm gonna enjoy all these treats Buster: Good Rio: how much should I bring? Rio: when I pack Buster: As much as you want, I'll send you money for if your cases are over the weight limit Rio: don't want it to look like I'm running away too hard but Buster: You're overthinking it, you never travel light anywhere, nobody'll notice Rio: I need options Buster: I'm not mad about it and I don't care if my parents are Rio: they're going to be Rio: you'll have to go to school, be 😇 to show I'm totally not a distraction Buster: You are, but I'll still go Buster: All that matters to me is that you feel safe Rio: I will do Rio: and I'll find ways to be useful to them as well as distracting to you Buster: Winning over Ava is basically the same thing as winning them over Buster: You've had loads of practice at that Rio: kids are easy Buster: She's easier than Grace, obviously Rio: wouldn't take much on Ava's part Rio: bless Buster: She'll be distracting at any rate Rio: I can take her to school and shit, free up some time for them Buster: Yeah, and once you've had some time, we can sort out getting your assignments and shit sent over Rio: I won't miss anything important Buster: It'll be fine Buster: I'll make sure it's fine, like Rio: I know you will Buster: You gonna facetime me into this study session or what then? Rio: depends Rio: are you going to be nice? Buster: To you Rio: well you're always nice to me Buster: Are you asking me to help Nance with her homework? Rio: how much do you think she'd appreciate that? Buster: She wouldn't, so of course I'll do it Rio: I can't with you two, honestly Buster: You love me, you don't even want her to come over Rio: I'm not getting in the middle of it Buster: You already are Rio: No I'm not, shh Buster: It's okay, I know you're on my side Rio: I love you more than anyone else in the world Rio: goes without saying Buster: I still really like hearing it Rio: You know you can hear it any time you want Buster: Is she there yet? Rio: nope, you remember how long that drive takes, even in an uber Buster: I'll call you then Rio: 🥰 Buster: [does obvs] Rio: I'll just be here counting down the minutes 'til you can hold me Buster: However long it feels, you'll be staying longer Rio: promise? Buster: I swear Rio: then I'm happy Buster: If you are, I am too Rio: I haven't even asked you how your days been Rio: I'm so rude Buster: Before and after I shot down gym girl there ain't much to report Rio: what did she look like? Buster: Every other girl in this postcode Rio: Blonde and skinny Buster: Yeah Rio: vaguely equine, dresses more like a nan than nan ever would Buster: I'll have to remember all that for the next one Rio: I can tell her myself if you like Buster: If you like Rio: Me? The jealous type? Buster: The jealous type and my type Rio: I better be Rio: only type Buster: You're the only one I've ever wanted or will ever want, you definitely don't need to add that to the list of shit that's worrying you right now Rio: I just like to hear it Buster: I'll tell you again then, I want you so much Rio: even without all this bullshit Rio: it's been too long Rio: I hate every second I'm not with you Buster: I know, me too Buster: I'm not gonna say he's done me a favour, but I am glad you're coming to stay Rio: I'll say it Rio: may as well get something good from it Buster: I'd rather you didn't have to deal with any of this bullshit, obviously Rio: of course Rio: I told you, I've never thought it was you, it's okay Buster: It's not okay that I haven't been able to do fuck all about this though Buster: I'm sorry Rio: Don't Buster: It's not good enough, I know that Buster: I'm gonna do better Rio: Stop it Buster: I mean it, Rio Rio: we've done everything we can Rio: it's not fair on me or you to act like we haven't Buster: I just hate this Rio: I know, baby Buster: You're the best thing that's happened to me, this shouldn't be happening to you Rio: It really could happen to anyone Rio: it's shit Rio: but you make me feel safe, that isn't nothing Buster: I'll calm down before you get here Buster: I swear Rio: you don't have to Rio: you can be mad, I am Rio: but you don't need to blame yourself, even if it's second to him, it's all on him Buster: I am angry but you've got the wrong twin if you reckon I'm willing to make any of this about me Buster: I'm here for you Rio: Trust me, I know Rio: she seems distracted herself recently Buster: Yeah? Rio: I'll try to work it out, not had time yet Rio: she won't say anything if you're on the phone though Buster: I don't have to be, if you wanna do some investigating Rio: I know you wanna know too Buster: I know if you get her started she'll talk about herself until you've gotten all of your own bullshit exists Rio: and you're a little nosy too, you can admit it Rio: I'll get the gossip Buster: She's still my sister Buster: 'Course I wanna know if she's being stalked as well or whatever Rio: You're cute Rio: and I do not think it's that Rio: obviously Buster: You know what I mean Rio: I do Rio: that's why I wanna know too Buster: Okay, tell me when you do Rio: 🧐 Rio: wouldn't suit the hat Buster: You'd suit anything, don't lie Rio: 😊 Rio: I mean if that's your thing I'll do my best Buster: If it was that wouldn't be the first you've heard of it Rio: be mad if it was Rio: you have to tell me exactly what you like so I can be it Buster: You are Buster: And I don't have, or want to have, any secrets from you Rio: secrets are boring Rio: and hard to keep Buster: Neither of us could ever be boring Buster: And I'll do whatever it takes to keep you forever Rio: You've got me Rio: not going anywhere Buster: Only closer to where I am, not further away Buster: Soon as your mum is back and your study session is over Rio: not that I need to do this homework now Rio: just be throwing subtle hints at Nance instead Buster: Be fucking typical her if she's getting bullied there as well Rio: I'd know if she was Rio: only have the two lessons with her but contrary to what the stalker suggests, I know most people well enough that they wouldn't Buster: Well Ava'll probably get a love life before she does, Christ knows what else it could be then Rio: ugh don't Rio: it's coming up with Edie for sure Rio: Jun is like Nancy and Billie isn't bothered thank god Rio: hate it Buster: Who's bothered about Edie then? Buster: Tell me your gossip Rio: It's just like the boys she hangs with are less useless stoner and more keep your eye on them types than Billie's friends Rio: and they aren't just friends types, I don't trust 'em Buster: Maybe I should be getting on a plane instead of you Rio: at least none of them are stupid Rio: especially not Eds Rio: have to hope anyway Buster: I've taught her how to protect herself physically, I reckon she can handle lads trying to get in her head Buster: Like you said Buster: She's no stupid kid Rio: Yeah, she has all the tools and advantages she can be given Rio: 💘 and hormones still make people stupid though Buster: I remember Rio: well yeah, ignoring the fact we'd be used as prime examples in that lecture Buster: Sure we have been, never too early for mum and dad to tell Ava what not to do Rio: As if we'll have started a trend Rio: if it wasn't you it'd be a really bad idea Buster: They should want her to have this, how I feel about you, how happy I am Buster: It's not as if they can actually judge us for who it's with Buster: This family are way past that Rio: You'd think Rio: I'm way past caring Rio: it was so Rio: I wasn't me without you Buster: I feel exactly the same, you know I do Buster: The only thing I've ever done wrong was not be with you, every bad thing I did or that was done to me can be traced back to that Buster: We're free now and this stalker isn't gonna make you feel otherwise any more, I'm not letting it happen for another fucking day Rio: we can get through anything, we've got the rest stacked against us and we're still strong Rio: as long as you love me, then there's nothing anyone can say or do Buster: I really fucking love you Rio: I love you Rio: endlessly Buster: [a flight he's booked her like this is happening no matter what excuse us fam] Rio: 🙏 Rio: I cannot wait Buster: Me either Rio: you can pick me up from the airport, right? Buster: Nothing could stop me Rio: Yay 🥰🥰🥰 Buster: You need me to help you with all that luggage Rio: it will be one suitcase Rio: and a sizeable handbag, thank you 😂 Rio: but I still need you Buster: I'll be early regardless Rio: you're the best Buster: No, I do my best, you don't even have to try Rio: You don't either Rio: but I will for you and I appreciate that you do Buster: I appreciate everything that you do Rio: you will Rio: that's the plan Buster: I do, whether or not shit goes to plan Buster: You're one of the strongest people I know, the least I can do is give you the reminder Rio: Buster Rio: it won't always be this dramatic, you know Rio: being together Buster: I don't care if it is, you're worth it Buster: And I'd endure the worst suffering I can possibly imagine to be with you if any alternative meant not being Rio: now you're just being hot about it on purpose Buster: I told you I miss you, nothing's changed Rio: I miss you all the time Rio: but I'm down for all the ways you make it worse Buster: [sends her a pic from when he was at the gym earlier like okay we're testing the waters but not very much yet lol] Rio: oh Rio: yeah, I would've flirted with you too Buster: What would you have said? Rio: Hmm Rio: ask you to check my form Buster: As long as you'd have time for how thorough I'd be, I don't have any problem with that Rio: Of course Rio: I'd ask you because you're clearly an expert Buster: And there's no need for me to hold back on my expertise as you're clearly so receptive to it, not to mention deserving Rio: Don't, I want you to show me exactly how you do it Buster: Never, I wouldn't wanna leave you with more questions than answers Rio: of course, but there are some things I could show you in return for all you're going to teach me Buster: Yeah? Buster: You've got yourself a deal, babe Rio: are you going to let me come to the gym with you really Buster: If you want to Buster: I'll try not to get too distracted at the prospect Rio: you look like that, obviously I want to Buster: [a pic of how he looks now like we can also stay in this bed where I currently am chilling] Rio: 🥺🥺 GIMME Buster: You're not meant to change your behaviour or habits for that cunt, remember Buster: Say please Rio: please Rio: please let me be in that bed right now Buster: [treat that gal to some more pics boy she's had a shit day] Rio: please be with me right now Rio: in me Buster: You know that's all I want Rio: you're perfect, Buster, you know that Buster: We're perfect for each other Rio: marry me Buster: As soon as we can, I will Rio: seriously Buster: I am being serious Rio: oh Buster: Once we're both 18 nobody can stop us Rio: yeah but Rio: nobody would come Buster: I only need you to turn up Rio: technically Buster: And actually, 'cause the rest of my family won't and like you said, I'm past caring Rio: if you were going to do it Rio: you'd want the big day, the venue, the clothes, the car Rio: everything proper Buster: If you were going to do it, you'd want your family there, you can say what you really mean Rio: we can't just do all that for two people Buster: We can do whatever we want Rio: I just wish people would be happy for us Buster: I know, I haven't properly asked you yet 'cause I want everything to be perfect for you and there's fuck all I can do to give you that Rio: it'll never happen, I know that Rio: I've accepted it, it's just hard to make total peace with Buster: There was a time when I reckoned we'd never happen Rio: yeah Buster: I don't care who or how many people I have to turn my back on for you, it'll never matter as much as us being together Rio: it shouldn't have to be like this Rio: it's bullshit Buster: Yeah, but it is, and I've made my choice Buster: You know the things I'd do differently and none of 'em are about not ending up here Rio: Me too Buster: Changing their minds is as likely as us changing ours, it's an old fashioned stand off, like Rio: True Rio: it's like, they forget they're meant to be anti-us sometimes though Rio: and it's just normal, like we're any other couple Buster: Maybe when we've has as many years as my parents, it will actually be considered normal Rio: you reckon? Buster: Worked for them Rio: I guess nan and granddad are sufficiently over it Rio: had competition though, didn't they Rio: don't think that's likely to repeat itself Buster: Fingers crossed Nance is hiding a dark enough secret to take at least some of my parents' attention nevertheless Rio: in your dreams, babe Buster: Why would I dream about her downfall when I could dream about your happiness? Rio: alright 😇 Buster: We're not married yet but in regards to that, what's mine is yours, babe Buster: And vice versa Rio: you know I want it too Rio: to be married to you, and have everything we want Buster: Then I'll make it happen, exactly how you want Buster: Where there's a will there's a way, yeah? Especially when it's my will getting involved Rio: I trust that Rio: you Buster: Good 'cause you can Buster: About this and everything else Rio: then that's settled Rio: and Nance is finally here Buster: I'll still be here if you need me Rio: 🧡🧡🧡 Rio: you focus on doing everything you possibly can before I get there so you can spend as much time with me as we've got Buster: Consider it done

[criminallyvenomous]

What Is This? Lucas X Reader

Part Eight in What Is This?

Eyo, yeah, I'm still working on summer work with the nine days I have before school starts. I'm a fucking mess. Ask me questions guys, I need to distract myself from the suffering.

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"I think your sister might be having my second son." You sing and your best friend joined in for the "ohhh" at the end.

"Mark, I missed hanging out with you, life's been so hectic recently."

"Y/N, shut up, I love this one." You follow his instructions as you look up at his tv to see the vine.

"Oh my God, they were roommates." You two say in sync before erupting into laughter. He pauses the comp to let you rant, which he could tell you needed. Yes, he was a mutual friend of you and Johnny, but with Johnny being in Korea and Mark being your age, he kind of became the person you were closest to.

"I just don't know how to deal with it."

"With sleeping in the same bed as one of the hottest guys on campus?"

"I never said he was hot."

"It didn't need said. Literally everyone can agree on that man's looks."

"Oh my God, Mark! Did I tell you he's an extra large in condoms?"

"Holy shit, I've got to get me a fake boyfriend."

"Don't you already have a real one? Don't make me tell him about this, there's no doubt that Haechan will kill you."

"That hit home. But, I don't get it, what is the issue here? He confessed to you."

"I don't think so. I think he was just saying he wants someone like me, not actual me."

"Well, have you two had any moments that were most certainly more than friendly?"

"I mean, we did kiss. But, he was really tired and probably wasn't thinking straight."

"Okay, Y/N, it may be hard to believe, but the boy likes you."

"Then why is he buying condoms and trying to make his ex jealous?"

"Ex? Who?"

"Jungwoo, that Snoopy-looking upperclassmen."

"They were never together, from what Jaehyun told me, they simply were only friends that had sex." This was shocking.

"Well, even if that's true, I think Lucas is going through too much to figure out what he wants and I am not going to try and convince him that he wants me."

"Fine, fine, but you know we could just ask someone."

"Ask who what? No one knows what's going on with Lucas except for Lucas himself."

"You're really hurting Kun's feelings. Kun knows everything about Lucas. They've lived together since Lucas was a minor. If you want to know what Lucas thinks about you without asking him yourself, Kun's the man for the job."

An hour later you were sitting on Kun's sofa, well technically Kun and Lucas' sofa, as he got you a glass of water. The apartment was nice, way bigger than yours, hell, it even had a second floor. His restaurant must be paying off well. You can't imagine Lucas paying rent, with his modeling being purely for school and not having any other job. Kun is definitely nicer than you thought. Maybe Lucas is giving him something better than money, you thought before shuddering in disgust.

"So, Miss. Y/N, what are you here for?" He clearly had an accent, but it wasn't unpleasant. You and Kun rarely hung out without Lucas, so the whole situation was a bit uncomfortable. You knew he was from China and he came here last year with the hopes to open a restaurant, which he succeeded in.

"I wanted to learn about you and Lucas' friendship."

"Well," He took a sip of his water that was a foot or so away from yours, "We found each other on Instagram back when we were both in Asia, but we never met until I came here. He let me stay in his apartment while I worked to open my place, I had promised to pay him back, which is why he gets to live here for free. I owe a lot to him."

"Wait, Lucas left Asia before you did?"

"Yeah, surprising, I know. He was scouted as a model and flew out here to do a shoot and fell in love with the city, so he enrolled in school here. He was, I think, sixteen."

"Wait, I have a stupid question."

"There are no stupid questions." Kun took another sip of his water.

"What language do you think in?" He choked on his drink.

"Chinese, wait, English, wait, both. WAIT, I think Korean. Damn, I don't even speak Korean. I think this is one of those if someone mentions breathing, you think of how you breathe-type things. Okay, you're distracting me, what're you really here for?" Shit.

"That was it, your trip to America and thought language. I'm good now, I'll leave." You panicked and stood up. He grabbed your arm and pulled you back down.

"Lucas is into you, he has been for awhile." Kun says without a thought of remorse, well, if he had one he might've been able to figure out what language it was in.

You sat there for a few seconds, watching the highlight reel of Lucas X Y/N interactions in your head. You must've been at it for awhile because when you looked up, Kun was gone.

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If y'all can't guess my bias now, you're a fucking idiot, all I'm saying.

Don't choke my little guttersluts - kat.